perfect sound forever

lameness abounds!

Loyal readers of this blog have read about Coffee Guy. Our flirtation has been going on for so long, it's becoming frustrating. I see him Mondays, Thursdays, Saturdays, and Sundays, when he works at the coffee shop. We flirt. He gives me free coffee. A few weeks ago, I went there on a Saturday at 5 p.m. with every intention of asking him out. I choked. Geeked out. We were talking, and I was just like, "Uh I gotta go."

Then there's M., the fascinating Gemini who I've liked since he was 28 (he is now 30). I haven't talked to M. in about a month now. His friend pranked me from his apartment on Thanksgiving. We've looked at each others' Friendster profiles. I make a point in asking our mutual friend how M. is every chance I get, hoping it will get back to him. Lameness abounds!!!

I can't stop thinking about him though. M. is so brilliant. He is a very special individual. I feel such strong chemistry with him, and this odd connection. I feel like it's mutual, but it hasn't seemed to go anywhere. Our one date was a failure. I want to see him again so badly, but I am so scared.

And I am totally one of those people who can be driven insane by this kind of thing. Aka, he will be mine, oh yes. Friends of mine are saying, "Forget about M., and focus on CG. He obviously likes you, but he probably hasn't asked you out because you're a customer. Once you and CG get together, you'll be totally over M. once and for all."

My ex, G. even said, "Not to sound totally gay or anything, but can you PLEASE ask him out and tell me what happens?" Point is, I want to ask him out tonight.

xmas

It's been a very relaxing holiday--all two days of it. Of course, I was supposed to take all of last week off, but ended up working EVERY SINGLE DAY. Oh, and then there was the transit strike, so I actually ended up paying $40 a day for three days to get to and from work. On my vacation.

Talk about a wake-up call. Did I mention my best friend, who was visiting from Miami came in Thursday night, and I couldn't even spend much time with her until Friday night (when I was absolutely knackered)?

Well, my friends, life is looking up. After January 11, I am a free woman. I am making a vow to change my life. 2006 is going to be the beginning of a change. I am going to be balanced.

My first instinct is NOT going to be work or obligations to others, it's going to be all about ME. Don't worry, I am not selfish enough to go off the deep end about this, but no longer will I be sobbing in a high-rise building in Times Sqaure on a Sunday, depressed that I'm working 24/7. No more cancelling plans with my firends (or avoiding making them out of fear of having to cancel). No fucking way.

Things that WILL be a part of my life: Working out at Clay as much as humanly possible, practicing yoga again, BOYS, and possibly the dog I have wanted for years.

I'm BACK! Prepare for less bitching more living!

GOT IT!

I gave my notice this week! New year, new job, party people!!!

I am very excited. This week has been stressful, but it's all worth it.

My best friend is coming to visit from Miami tonight!

Life is good!!!

More on the job

Just so you know: I am looking. I have a very good prospect, which would be an amazing opportunity for me. I have asked for additional help at work--two more people for the department--and now it's up to the bigwigs to approve it. But having said all that, in my mind, I've turned a corner. I know I'm good at what I do, I love everyone I work with, but I can't be there for much longer. I won't be there for much longer.

Let it snow

It's snowing in New York City!

Today it's pretty--by tomorrow, tres shitty. At least the winter white covers up some of grime. At least temporarily.

Yesterday, went on a photo shoot from 10 to 2. I was dreading it, but it actually ended up being really fun. We shot at Industria, and for once, everyone was in a good mood. Kristen brought her dog. Melissa brought bagels. The makeup artist was planning her trip to Costa Rica. This photographer Jason who works with us shot, and brought his whole fun crew. The trainer was Jillian from The Biggest Loser. Man, she was in incredible shape. She gave the poor model a crazy move to do. Just watching, I felt like I'd worked out.

I booked my trip to Miami!!! Going there for New Year's which is going to be so much fun. Nancy called me up the other day and left me a message asking if I knew anyone at Club Paris in Miami--supposedly there is going to be some insane party there. Sadly, I have the owner's name in my Rolodex at work. Don't ask.

Allan and I stayed in and drank wine last night. We watched Bad Santa (not as funny as I'd hoped) and White Chicks (soooo stupidly funny) and ordered what we like to call "the stoner package": french fries, mmozarella sticks, and onion rings. Oh boy.

Today we are trying to meet up with Gretchen and Laurent for brunch....

Tonight is Eddie's birthday!!!

hahah

I'm still here. It never ends. My life is a dark comedy!!!

It's alive

Sorry to have been such a horrible blogger in the past, oh, I don't know how long.

Just when I think things couldn't get more hectic, they do. I have less and less time to myself. I rarely have time to think. It's an odd feeling.

Last night, I managed to have some fun though. Drew and company hosted their Spoiler film festival at the Upright Citizen's Brigade Theater in Chelsea. It was the 8th Spoiler, and I have to say, each time the event happens, it becomes more professional. The movies were really well-done. Most very funny.